Thursday, 31 July 2014

Happy Parents

My brother and his wife welcomed their baby boy just a day before Hans turned 6! A first for them as well as a first for my boys who were eagerly awaiting a cousin on their Momley's side of the family. There has been much joy at this arrival. There have also been moments of self-doubt as with all new parents.

My sister-in-law, the lovely new mom, has been most affected! She constantly worries that she is probably not being a good parent. She wonders when her son cries for a few minutes if she is not comforting him enough!‎ She asks me how I dealt with my own 2 boys. She believes I must have been quite good.

Actually, I was as much in self-doubt as she is now for the first few weeks‎ of ASid's life. I constantly questioned my competency. Perhaps all new parents feel that way; it is a learning phase. First time parenting becomes almost like a trial and error "experiment"; eventually, there are successful outcomes! Some parents get there sooner than others and it's OK; this is not a race!

I have personally witnessed a few new mom meltdowns. I know of new moms who have gone crazy staying home with a baby. They all felt guilty. Is it OK to be happy at the thought of going back to work once the maternity leave is up? Yes, absolutely! I believe that all of us parents need to do what makes us happy. At the end of a day, a happy parent is a good parent (regardless of all the errors we invariably make). But, then again, there is no such thing as a "happy parent"! We all do what we need to do and there are certainly unhappy moments.

When an adult can look back and say s/he had a happy childhood, ‎then his/her parents did a good job! I'd like to believe that they had happy parents :)

So, all new parents out there..."Don't worry; Be happy"...what a nice little song to hum through parenthood.
 

Sunday, 13 July 2014

I am 40 today!!

I don't feel any different! Definitely, a time for reflection though!

I am reminded of a day in the year when Smoggy, my dear friend, and I turned 25. I told him the clichéd "when we turn 40 and we aren't married to someone by then, we will marry each other"! To which, he responded that he had already made that pact with his best friend from his teenage years! As my brother (and some others) would say‎, "BURN!"

I can laugh about it now; however, I can't imagine being single right now. I can't imagine life without my 2 beautiful boys. If I can actually go back in time and have the chance to live my life differently...I know I will make the same choices I have made and have no regrets! The last few months and 12 years have been the best; being a mom has been the best gift!

As I look forward to the next few years of my life, I will strive to laugh more and once in a while, laugh at myself as well. So, here is a laugh I'd like to share with my friend, KPF, and everyone else who cares...just because...

As mentioned in my last post, I have been looking for a job and I have been quite vocal about it as I don't know where the next opportunity ‎awaits me. One of the parents at Hans' school mentioned that there is an "opportunity" she'd like to discuss with me. It was on the last day of school and I was worried that I may not get an opportunity to pursue this "opportunity"! I was worrying unnecessarily as this parent insisted on meeting with me face to face and actually set up a time! I was very excited and waited eagerly; she was a few minutes late. I was OK with that!

She started off by saying that she hopes I wouldn't be offended‎ by what she was about to say! All I could think of was perhaps she was offering me a job as a nanny; I have been mistaken for a nanny several times! That wouldn't upset me and I could politely decline! Although, by now, this parent definitely knows that I am not the nanny! So, what is this "opportunity" that could possibly offend me?

Turns out her husband is a dentist and he got to meet me at Hans' 6th birthday party. Apparently, being the professional that he is, he noticed that my teeth could use some work! He wanted to provide me with an "opportunity" to have this work done within a reasonable amount of money!

I could almost hear a loud "BURN!" in my ears. I let this parent know that I am focused on finding a job currently and when I am able to earn some extra dollars for my family, I would definitely consider this generous "opportunity" being provided by her dentist husband.

For once, I didn't cry; I had a good laugh and I immediately wanted to share with family and friends, and laugh some more!

Hope you had a good laugh too!
 

Thursday, 10 July 2014

The "first" interview

Technically, it was not my first interview; but it sure did feel like it!

On April 4th, I saw a job posting that got me very interested. It was for a part-time position and it was what I was looking for! It allowed me to work from home! I desperately wanted this job and I spent somewhere between 2 and 3 hours to rework my resume and cover letter. As soon as I was done, I emailed it; I didn't even think about the fact that there was a deadline of April 25th and I sent it out too early on April 5th which also happens to be a Saturday! Perhaps, I should have waited till Monday at least?!

On the following Monday, I was pleasantly surprised to receive an acknowledgment of my application from the potential employer. Just that courtesy boosted my confidence to no end. I wrote back saying that I hope to hear from them after the 25th of April! I was waiting anxiously and finally on the 30th, I was contacted to reconfirm my interest in the position as well as state my availability for certain weekdays. Once all those formalities were completed, I got an interview date of May 14th - my first interview in a long long time and I was excited. However, I also had the daunting task of rounding up 3 references!!

What seemed like a challenging task turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I got an opportunity to reconnect with people on a professional level; the best one was with my friend Smoggy. He and I worked for about 3 years prior to ASid's birth; although we met at a workplace, we became really good friends. We worked well professionally and also gelled personally. It came as no surprise then that I reached out to my friend Smoggy! He offered to go through the job description and prepare me for the interview. He spent an hour and a half on the phone reminding me of all the skills I possess. I was truly astonished at my own knowledge and I felt prepared for the interview next day.

What can I say? I did really well in the interview. I called Smoggy, my Mom, my newest friend (who gave me an opportunity to do a couple of hours' worth of work each week) ‎ and Craigley. I told them all that I had the job; I was so sure. I was so excited. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I had experienced something other than a Momley Moment that made me feel good about myself.

Then, a week went by and I heard nothing. None of my references were contacted! What happened? A day later, I get an email saying that the job has been offered to someone else. It was May 22nd and Hans' 6th b'day, and I just broke down and cried. I felt a loss that couldn't be expressed in words. Amidst all that crying, I wanted to know "why?” The lady who had been communicating with me the whole time was kind enough to reply to my query and this is what she wrote:

It was wonderful to meet you, and share some of your teaching experiences.  I do hope you are able to move ahead to a more full time position, as you certainly have many excellent skills that should assist you. 

I thought you were very comfortable in the interview, and answered questions in detail and on point.  You have many great qualifications that will assist in the process.  I have no doubt that if you continue to pursue job opportunities you will soon find a more full time position.  

In this work world, it often takes several searches for jobs before the right one appears.  So don't give up!!  

All the best with this journey!

Thank you lady! Thank you Smoggy! Thank you to everyone else who believe in me. Boys, Momley is on her way! I would have loved for an opportunity to work with this lady, however there will always be other opportunities and Momley is not giving up!