God, Faith and Rejection

Hans mentioned today that he will get a part in the TVO show for sure. I asked him how?! He said that he asked God and so, he will get the part!!

I had to do the good parent intervention and debug his brain a bit. I asked him this question: what if all the kids who auditioned asked God for a part? There are so many kids and only a few parts! Hans thought over it for a second and exclaimed loudly that if God doesn't give him the part, he will fart on him!! So much for reverence!!

A simple debugging wasn't the solution here; it appear‎ed like we needed an entire brain overhaul! This child has always asked questions about God; even visualized him as a mash up of all super heroes! And yes, he thinks of God as masculine! Is it too soon for him to lose faith in God...whoever that God may be in Hans' brain?!

I don't know why, but I chose to save God.

I explained how his big brother, ASid, did not recently get into a high school program; however, he got accepted into another program later! It is good he‎ got into the second program because his best friend will be there with him!!

Sometimes God does not give us what we want so we can get something better later.

I don't know how much I got through to him. At this point in time, I am praying to all Gods out there - male, female, all religions, all colours! Please don't let Hans be rejected!! ‎But then I am also comforting myself with the thought that if that should happen, there are better things out there for my child. Together, all Gods and Momley, will help Hans find another part...

... no one should fart on God or anyone!

First Anything!

Today is Hans' First Audition. Last night, he wanted to know what would happen if he does not do well?! Poor kid!! He has probably been carrying the big weight of his family's expectations on his little 6 year old's shoulders?! Well, I told him it doesn't matter. There will be other opportunities. I am not sure that was a great response or even a good one?!

Last year, Hans was a background performer on a TVO show‎. He got selected based on a picture I sent in. He worked for 6 days and was paid $300 in total. That was in April. We were pleasantly surprised when the production company emailed and inquired about Hans' availability for an audition. Apparently, the show did well and got picked up for a second season!

Hans' life's aim has been to be a superhero and be famous! Essentially, he has seen superheroes on TV and in movies, and that's where he wants to be. In that sense, this is a dream come true for him. As I am thumb typing this‎ on my mobile phone, my little guy is sleeping. We are 2 and a half hour away from his first audition. I wish him all the best.

When we come back, I will finish this post! Que sera sera...what will be will be...

Hans woke up and said that he was scared to go to the audition! ‎At that point in time, I was a little scared for him too! Would he be scarred for life if I made him go and he did badly and gave up his dreams?! I just put my doubts aside and told my child to get ready to go and have some fun. I also shared that I am scared and it is OK! We have each other and we can do it.

I did not get a chance to be part of Hans' audition, but he was pleased with himself‎. We don't know if he got a role in the TVO show. It doesn't matter. Hans showed up at the audition and took that first step. That's all that matters!

 

Generosity and Money Management

Perhaps I was too quick to jump to conclusions?!

My first born sent a note the very next day of the "Texting Rampage" incident to apologize to his Momley‎! He is also home now.

ASid came back with 20 Euros and some change. 20 Euros was the emergency money the teacher asked each student to ‎keep with her! If not for that, ASid literally came home with "chump change"! Somehow even writing about it seems so petty now.

ASid came back with an experience that will remain with him for the rest of his life. He seems somehow more grownup now than on March 12, 2015, the day he left on his trip. He also brought home thoughtful gifts for his family and friends. I am not talking souvenirs here; these are real gifts like a book, a 1 litre glass bottle of apple juice‎, posters, cologne/perfume (small/sample sizes), etc.

He did not buy ice cream for himself, and he did do silly stuff like eat macarons that he does not like; however, he is only 13 and this is the first time he was away from home and making decisions on his own! He may not know how to manage money, but he has a generous heart. I am so proud of him.

‎I still need to take him out for ice cream and have that talk about money management and while I am at it, I must discuss his extreme generous nature!

 

The Funnies and the Water Falls

There are days I tell myself that I am doing a terrible job as a mother. I am sure I must have mentioned somewhere that I perhaps put that extra pressure on myself. If other moms can work and take care of their children, I should do a fantastic job of just taking care of them?! Right?!

Then there are days I know I have done a great job! Such days are made possible by moments like the following:

Hans remarked the other day that his Momley is the best person in the family. When asked for an explanation, he elaborated that his Momley does all the work in the house. In fact, according to him, she is a servant of the family. However, he did conclude that she is better than Batman's servant!

That is a moment when I don't know if I should cry or laugh?! So, I laugh. At least, the little guy observes his environment and knows what is happening. He recognizes his Momley’s contributions in his own special way!

Then there are other moments…

Right now, Hans' big brother is in Paris on an optional school trip! ASid is lucky that he has such generous maternal grandparents and an awesome maternal uncle who are willing to support his dreams or as some may term them, his whims!! ASid is 13 and very few kids get to go overseas at this age. Obviously, he is learning a lot! What I did not expect was the following:

Yesterday, ASid refused to talk with me on the phone and instead went on a Texting rampage! He accused me of ill preparing him with money management and budgeting! He was like "I am just a kid and you expect me to bring back souvenirs for everyone! I can't even buy ice cream for myself!" Well, that was a tad exaggerated. Just a day prior to that, ASid spent money on expensive macarons and McDonald's macarons to do a blind taste test...and he does not even like macarons!!

Should I laugh or cry?!

Well, this has been a learning experience for me. I hope it has been one for ASid as well! ‎As of yesterday, he still had a day and a half to go in Paris and 13 Euros in his pocket. I think he will survive. Tomorrow, he will be home. I will make sure I take him out for ice cream and have that chat about money management and budgeting!

Note: I started typing this post on February 5th and forgot what "the waterfalls" were; today, on March 18th, I know and finished typing the post!