We all feel pain at some point in our
lives. We all feel it differently.
Right now, I am in a lot of pain. I have family and friends trying to help me cope with it. Some of them have said to call them anytime, day or night, and that they are there for me. I am appreciative of all the kind words and gestures.
What I am finding is that I have been the most open about my pain with one individual more than others. I made her acquaintance through work about 6 months ago. What makes her easy to share with is the fact that she endured a separation not too long ago. Her then husband waited until their youngest was off to university before he served her with papers. She said that it was the most painful time of her life. But she survived. This individual has become a symbol of hope for me. She has also become a friend. When I speak with her, I know she understands.
As I am typing this, I received a message from her: “Good things to come!”
To that end, Craigley must loom large
as the biggest villain in my life. He has decent qualities that must be ignored
for the greater good of my feelings. The more positive I feel about this
separation, the better I can cope with it and come to terms with it. One day,
the boys will read this post. They will understand.
Maybe we will all be able to forgive each other someday …
