When it rains, it pours!

I had been so full of self-doubt the last few months as I embarked on the journey to find a job. There were days I was tough on myself and there were days I felt sorry for myself. I found support in strangers and lost faith in loved ones. There was a bit of paranoia that people were judging me and perhaps pitying me?! Mostly, I didn't want to let down my boys.

I remember going for my one and only one interview. I was in a taxi on the way there. Usually, I walk or take the TTC. That day, I didn't want to arrive huffing and puffing to the interview. It worked out well that it wasn't too far from my home. As I got in, I couldn't help but let the taxi driver ‎know that I was going for a job interview. I shared with him about being a stay-at-home mom for over 12 years and how nervous I was about the interview! As I left the taxi, the driver remarked, "It is not the end of the world!” It was sweet and ironic at the same time as I say that to my boys almost always. I was grateful for the reminder that day.

‎And hopefully, I will never forget it. Today, as I am remembering that moment, I am also hoping the boys will never forget it. Sometimes, we lose perspective of what is important. Jobs will come and jobs will go. Time is not made that way. Right now, I have jobs scheduled here and there. I don't have a full-time job and yet, I am so busy. It does pour when it rains...and I will enjoy these blessings from the skies.