The Bulls in my Life

When I was a teenager, I discovered Linda Goodman's books. As much as I loved reading anything and everything, I became obsessed with Linda Goodman's subject matter. I tried to borrow or buy all the books she had written up until then!

After intense reading of each one of her books, some more than once, I came to the conclusion that I would settle down with a bull! A crab and a bull living together might not make much sense in the real world, but in an astrological universe, it is a match made in heaven!

I must have prayed with a pure heart because I ended up with 3 bulls in my life - my first love, my best friend and my husband.

I may have portrayed my first love, "Eternal Boy", in a not so positive light in some of my posts. Yes, he may not have been kind to me at one point in my life; however, we have become friends since then! This morning, I received a note from him. He pledged to bike 5000 kilometres to raise a certain amount of money for a particular country's Cancer Society. He set a goal of 1 year to finish biking that distance and he managed to complete it within 11 months! He also raised more funds than anticipated!

These days, I am trying to focus on the generosity and kindness of people. EB has taken the time, in the last few years, to remind me that I was a positive influence in his life and that he strives to include some of my traits into some of the things he does in his life. It does require courage to reach out to someone we scorned in the past and mend that relationship to move forward to a freedom that releases us from the shackles of the worst memories of our lives. EB has done that for the both of us. One day, I hope we can actually meet and celebrate the people we have become!

Then, there is my best friend Smoggie. In my book, he can do no wrong! He is constantly rescuing me from the demons in my head. I create worlds that don't exist and feel feelings that I shouldn't, and Smoggie is the quintessential Knight who will give up his life to save my life in any world! I remember a moment in the far past where both of us were at these ATM machines. We would go there all the time to withdraw cash. For the first time, I couldn't get the cash I requested. The balance was 32 cents. I went into panic mode wondering what the heck happened?! It was around the time I was buying my very first house and I guess a certain amount of money was withdrawn leaving me literally "house rich and cash poor" or something like that! Smoggie made me promise there and then that he would buy everything I needed until my next pay cheque. No, he was not lending me money; he was paying for everything for the next couple of weeks!

Then there is Craigley, the biggest villain in my life. He pursued me with a singular focus and got me to marry him. Recently, we celebrated 19 years of being together. I am, by far, his longest commitment. Like most married couples, we have been through ups and downs. To his credit, Craigley shows a bullish determination in keeping it together. For better or for worse, our paths crossed. We have 2 remarkable children together.

Now, when I look back on my teenage self, I have to admit that I was in love with Linda Goodman's portrayal of a bull. I wished so very earnestly to meet a bull and fall in love. I wasn't aware then that one must be careful of what one wishes for!

I am glad I did as I have been blessed thrice!