Death and Life

Hans is not as much fascinated by God anymore, however that has been replaced by his fascination for Death...rather a fear of Death.

A few days ago, he was bawling while he got ready for bedtime. He kept saying that he didn't want to die and he didn't want anyone else to die as well. I let Hans cry. I believe it is therapeutic to ‎let it all out. Once he calmed down, he wondered if he would go to Heaven?! Of course, I assured him. Hans wanted a guarantee!! How can I be so sure that he would go to Heaven? How do I know? I had to admit that I didn't know for sure...

Then, he requested that he didn't want to be buried. He wanted to know his options. I mentioned cremation and he wasn't exactly sold on the idea. It was quite bizarre ‎that we were having this conversation just before bed time instead of reading a superhero book together. Finally, Hans drifted off to sleep.

If Hans ever brings up Death again, I would perhaps steer the conversation towards Life. As many wise people have already observed, Death is imminent; we cannot avoid it! We all die some time or the other. How nice! Now that we have that out of our way, I would really want both my boys to live Lives that are remembered.

On that note, I will continue to persevere ‎as well. Life is too short and there is a lot to be done. So what if some plans fall apart; there are others to consider. And I want my Life to be remembered! 

It is great how the boys remind me about what is important. In the process of trying to answer their questions, I find solutions to my own dilemmas. While I am chasing away their demons, I find my angels.