(L)earnings from 41 Years of Life

As I am approaching the year after the "big four oh", I feel like there is so much I still need to do on a personal level as well as on a Momley level!

Recently, I have been looking at Momley Moments as some sort of a virtual ‎head stone over my final resting place. This is where the boys can visit and reflect. Given that, I need to put more thought into my ramblings!

Couple of days ago, I woke up to read an email from my friend Y. She needs to leave the country to visit her grandfather who had a heart attack. It is one of those moments where I didn't know how to respond. Her family, 3 generations of people, were planning the 100th birthday celebration for this very grandfather over several weeks if not months. Now, it may never happen...

Such is life. We are here one day and gone the next. Plans fall apart and there are times I have fallen apart. However, I am fortunate to have family and friends who put me back together each and every time. Currently, another plan seems to be falling apart. I planned to be reemployed by the time I was 40; didn't happen! I was kind enough to give myself an year's extension. Now that I am so close to meeting my own renewed due date, it appears like things may not work out?!

When someone's life is about to end, a plan to be gainfully employed‎ seems so materialistic! But employment is important; I have found out in recent years. But I also remember my friend's, Smoggy's, words: any job, at the end of a day, is just a job. Smoggy is right. There will be other jobs to find! I guess the reason I can't find a job is because I don't want any job; I want a job that means something to me. I have waited so long that it doesn't make sense to compromise as the goal is near!

I guess I am quite fortunate (again) to have this time to dwell on my situation and to have the ability to choose. ‎If this were life or death, I guess I would have little choice...I would take the first available flight out!

So, what have I learned in the last 41 years that I can share with my children?

Life is measured by the choices we make when we actually have the ability to choose. ‎Some choices are made for us and some we make under duress. The choices we take the time to make are the ones that truly define us! So, I hope my children make the right choices in their lifetime and can look back on life with few regrets.

Right now, at this moment in time, I can.