Tuesday, 28 February 2017

Healing Poetry

Here is another poem for my readership. Thank you for the quiet encouragement!


The Wicked Waves

Some names are etched in stone

Some cemented on pavement

Some carved on a tree trunk

 
Ours were drawn in sand

Meant to be together for a short while

Washed away by wicked waves

 
I hope there was a heart around our names

If not, a plus sign in between

Or an ampersand joining us together

 
Does it matter what there was?

We were together even if for a short while

Till the wicked waves washed us away



Addendum:

My friend H, who lives half away around the world, was the first to read the above poem. She had this amazing philosophy to share after reading it:

I think over the years we accumulate memories…some good ones & some bad ones…and I think the people who add value to our life in any way…stay with us.

She wondered if the poem was about the boy from a long time ago and I replied that it was inspired by a recent loss. I just romanticized the aspect of loss as it made the most positive sense in my mind; it appealed to my senses as well. Like I already mentioned earlier, poetry is whimsical and it need not make any sense at all.
 

Saturday, 25 February 2017

Calling Beck...

Nope! Not calling for a taxi!

A few days ago, the Beck song almost became my anthem. I did feel like a loser and hummed in my head,

I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?

Then, I started focusing on the following lyrics:

In the time of chimpanzees, I was a monkey.

Then, it hit me. I am not a loser! Perhaps a misfit and perhaps a bit different?! Monkeys are supposed to be less smart than chimpanzees. So, maybe, I am a little stupid?! Doesn't matter!! I am definitely a winner because I did not compromise on my integrity.

I have been sitting on this (un)fortunate incident for a few days now. Somehow, perception won over reality and appearances took over the truth. In one sentence, the friendship between Greek God and Momley came to a standstill, a tragic end.

Why is it that no one speculates a lesbian relationship when 2 women hangout - go for a walk, have lunch together or shop for groceries. A man and a woman are seen at Costco together and it is some sort of absurd proof that they must be involved?!

It is Costco folks; not Shangri-La! The man and woman are buying chips for pizza lunch for their children's school!!

Like my brother quoted from Lawrence of Arabia, "a little people, a silly people" or something like that!

So, it felt natural for Momley to give up her friendship. She is all for Mr. Spock's Vulcan philosophy of the needs of the many being more important than the needs of the few. So, only 2 people were affected; the other was ASid who was so supportive of her friendship with G. 

On that note, I would like to quote Sir B/UB who had these last and great words to make me feel better and made ASid feel better as well:

Pride is only a sin when left untempered with humility, the latter of which you have more than plenty of. So keep your head high and don't let busybody hens tell you who you can or can NOT associate with.

And if the person you are associating with is not big enough of a person to do the right thing, then their worth is undeserving of your respect as well.

Boys, pay attention! Words to live by! Even from a tragic ending, we can learn valuable life lessons.

If it is worth it, battle it out. Even if you lose, you know that you gave it your all. At the end, that's all that matters.

Note: If Momley didn’t sit on this post for a few days, it would have sounded as sobby as the sobby voicemail she left for Smoggy to hear. Luckily, time does heal. Now the post is a triumphant tale where Momley is a glorious winner. Of course, it also helps to have full control over a blog where she has the last word!
 

Wednesday, 22 February 2017

Missing Socks!!

The other day, I noticed that ASid had a hole in his sock and I wondered out loud why that is the case?! What happened to the many pairs of socks he has?! Surely, one of them has no holes?! ASid responded with, "Oh, I am waiting for the wash to come out!" What wash?! I reminded him that he hasn't "submitted any dirty laundry" in a couple of weeks. Gone were the days when I would walk into his room and get his clothes to wash. ASid was like, "Oh, I will get them now! Sorry mom!" His room has become his sanctum sanctorum and we all stay out. As I waited patiently, ASid ran into his room and came out with a bag of laundry. When I finally got to it, at the end of the day, I found 2 million t-shirts in there. OK! More like 2 dozen, but felt like more. The point to note here is not my ability to exaggerate, but that there were no socks in the bag he submitted. In a real world situation, that's a fail! But since this is my child, I gave him another opportunity to find all the dirty socks in his room.

In reality, this post has nothing to do with missing socks. It is really about missing ASid. The boy is on a school trip. Before he left, he said that one third of my problems will be gone for a couple of days. I protested and said that I consider them my responsibilities and I am happy to take care of them. He also gave me a big hug and thanked me for helping him get ready for the trip.

Since I like to exaggerate, I want to write that I was up at a godforsaken hour and struggled to get the boy ready. However, it wasn't all that bad. The only real problem we ran into was a lack of clean pair of socks to last the entire trip! This, in spite of me doing a whole load of ASid's clothes a couple of days prior to the trip!

One of these days, ASid will remember to include those socks; maybe when his friends' noses will protest. Right now, I hope the boy is having a great time and not worrying about socks. As if!

By the way, today is the kid’s half birthday which we used to celebrate once upon a time. He is 15 and a half today. How time flies!
 

Tuesday, 21 February 2017

Watching YouTube videos and wondering why?!

First of all, why was I watching YouTube videos? I was watching videos with the boys as we waited to get out to go see the Auto Show. We had an hour to wait and the boys actually refused an offer to go to Baskin Robbins and instead chose to watch some YouTube videos of Pokémon and Yu-Gi-Oh parodies. The Pokémon was something "crack" and the Yu-Gi-Oh was something "crap". Within the first couple of minutes, I was appalled. I wondered why the boys would choose to waste their time watching such rubbish. However, we had an hour to kill and I was willing to spend that time trying to understand this madness.

Another couple of minutes later, I realized that the video we were watching was actually very cleverly put together. Couple of videos later, I had some respect for the dude who made them. I am sure there were 2 or more dudes as we watched 2 different series. The editing was great, but I was still not sure of the content. It was literally aimed at boys who enjoy jokes about bottoms and farts. Not to be sexist, I am sure some girls like those jokes too! The boys were definitely having fun.

There was a bit of profanity and also, references to girls and boobs. Hans was a little oblivious and ASid got a little uncomfortable. I actually enjoyed the teen's discomfort. Eventually though, I felt like watching one or more episodes is fine; however, continuously watching this crack/crap stuff could lead to mind numbing consequences. I hope when there is no supervision, the boys are able to restrain themselves and not OD!

This YouTube stuff is no less than cheap drugs!
 

Tuesday, 14 February 2017

The Forever Love

A while ago, I remarked to Craigley that I want the boys to find mates who would cook for them and take care of them. To which, Craigley responded, "Are you looking for mates or maids for your boys?"

Craigley has a knack for taking nothing seriously. What I meant was that I enjoy cooking for the boys and taking care of them; I was hoping that they find people who love them as much as I do.

Today is Valentine's Day. This morning, ASid remarked that he does not like VD as everyone seems so sad. And I agreed with him and said that the day is really a commercial "holiday" where no one gets the day off. The idea of love gets rubbed in everyone's faces till their faces are many shades of red! Some are hopefully happy at the end of the day.

I did tell ASid though that I love him. There are many kinds of love and we must cherish them all. The romantic kind will happen one of these days to my boy. It will be sweet and special. It could last forever or for a fleeting moment. I hope he has the time of his life when it does happen.

I fell in love for the first time when I was around 15; the same age as ASid is now. When one is that young, one is also naïve and idealistic. I truly believed that I had my one true love and we would last forever. Obviously, I did not and it did not. Heart got broken; however, love was found again and heart was repaired. 

I realized recently that we have this amazing ability to fall in love over and over again. My fond wish for the boys is to find that forever love; if not, I sincerely hope they enjoy the many loves in their lives. I hope they are forgiving when their hearts get broken. I hope they are appreciative when their hearts get mended. I hope they find their soul mates even if they can't be with them. I hope they get inspired to write poetry when in love. I hope they stand with and stand by the people they love. I hope they take risks, shed some tears and move on. I hope they love it all.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Tomorrow marks the 5th anniversary of the day "Momley Moments" was created. Thank you for all your love. You have kept me going and I hope to go on forever with such awesome support!
 

Saturday, 11 February 2017

Sorting kids into neat little slots

I have an issue with people calling kids nerds. I am sure I have an issue with most unflattering words people use for kids; however, the usage of the word nerds is my absolute pet peeve.

I guess my annoyance stems from the fact that I have a child who most people might consider a nerd. ASid does not play sports; is very academic; loves board games; enjoys strategy games online; reads books, and engages in conversations with his mom. Luckily for ASid, he does not care about people's opinions or perceptions of him. Unfortunately, not all kids have his attitude.

If we do use such words with negative connotations, we must own them with pride. I remember a conversation with another mom a couple of years ago. We both remarked at the same time that we have such nerdy boys; we immediately followed that up with a smile and a statement that "nerds will rule the world!" In that moment, we embraced the word nerds and made it OK in our own minds.

Not all kids enjoy sports. As long as kids are engaged in some activity that makes them happy and creates friendships, that should be enough. It is best for a child to hang out with other like-minded children than be pushed to play with children who are in a different mind space.

I know this post is coming across as didactic at this point in time, perhaps I am writing this for the boys to read a few years from now! As much as ASid doesn't care, Hans does care so very much. If someone called him a nerd, he would dwell on it for days and torture himself. Fortunately, he is able to express his concerns even if it takes a few days and we are able to do some damage control.

The point of this post is to let the boys know that they must choose the paths that allow them to be their best selves. They must not be afraid once they embark on these paths. As long as they are focused on their goals, success will follow. Words uttered here and there are of very little consequence!
 

Wednesday, 8 February 2017

Going the "snail mail" way...

The other day, Greek God and I were seriously discussing bullying.

Before I proceed further, I'd like to call my friend simply G. The 2 word title is a bit much at this point in time and it has served its purpose well and time to move forward.
So, G and I were discussing bullying. My focus was mostly on Hans and I was sharing his experiences with Chucky/Junior who seemed to have not evolved much since he was 4 years old. Since Hans is so sensitive, it seems like he is an easy target for bullies. On the other hand, I mentioned to G that ASid doesn't care about what people think. To which G remarked something like "aren't you afraid he will go postal one day?" I just brushed it off with "he is a good boy!"

For whatever reason, I decided to share my conversation with ASid. His first words were, "explain going postal". So, I did and then ASid responds with, “Mom, it is the 21st century! I won't go postal, I will go Instagram!" 
Then he tsktsked G and me, and advised that we should keep up with the times. Well, I don't mind taking advice from a punny 15 year old. There is always something new to be learnt from the next generation! I am glad we could still engage in a dialogue. And I definitely don't see this child going the "snail mail" way!

Note: After a discussion that lasted a good 40 minutes, both G and I didn’t have one sure fire way to help Hans; however, we agreed that kids need their parents’ support, good friends and positive reinforcement. It might take some time, but they will overcome these obstacles in their way. We have to believe it and make sure they believe it too.
 

Friday, 3 February 2017

A Wish for Childhood

This post is a total Momley indulgence.

Even as I try to do my best as a parent, I am bothered by the hypocrisy of it all. I am not always honest with my boys about the world awaiting them…I am too positive and too optimistic. And when I am faced with the same world, I am not sure what to do! I am still learning and while I am at it, I am trying to teach these little souls that look to me for answers and seek direction. I do hope I am not leading them astray!

Here is a poem that captures this conundrum.

 
I want to be a child again

 
Feel my mother's heart beat 

As her arms wrap around me

And hold me tight

 
I want to be a child again

 
Hide behind my father's legs

When I am afraid of that light

Flashing in my face

 
I want to be a child again

 
Play with my brother

Lose a tooth

Pretend to be a fairy

 
I want to be a child again

As I look at my own child

 
I am an adult now

And I don't want to be one

Spinning tales...Telling lies

Make believe no more

Can't sleep at night

All those masks...Can't take them off

Nowhere to hide

 
I want to be a child again

As I look at my own child

 
Take your time

There is no rush

The world that's waiting

Is not that great

But when you are lost

I will be there

Feel your heart beat next to mine

 
I want to be a child again

Do I want to be a child again?


Addendum:

I don't share any of my writing with Craigley and the boys. For some reason, I decided to share the above poem. This is how Craigley reacted to it: "Why are you telling lies? That's not nice!" So, I responded with: "That's the last time I will ever share any of my writing with you!" Who focuses on only 2 words in an entire poem? On the other hand, ASid was a little kinder than his dad. He remarked: "Cool! I guess you are feeling this way right now!" And he continued with, "I thought I may go into a clinical depression based on what dad said, but this is alright." With that, he went back to playing on his 3DS.

At the end of the day, I decided to read it to Hans. Why exclude him?! Here is what he had to say, "You say too much that you want to be a child and then you don't want to be a child! That's weird!"

Poetry is not literal; it is almost whimsical in a manner of speaking. It is also subjective like most writing is. Some get it and some don’t. At least, I tried.