So, I write and share here, with my friends, in my safe space.
On Thursday, January 17th,
I accepted my first assignment to supply teach. That morning, I got a call 2
minutes after I dropped off Hans at his school. I dashed from there to this
other school where my service and presence was needed. My first assignment was
in a Special Education classroom. Yesterday, I took up another assignment at
the same school. It was for half a day of Physical Education. I wasn’t aware
that I was going to do that! Today, they called me back for a full day of
Drama. They want me for the next 2 days as well. Tomorrow, I am filling in for
a French teacher for half a day. Day after, I do not know!
I am an English teacher and I
have been supply teaching randomly for other subjects. I taught Geography at
one school and that was my weakest subject all through middle school and high
school. That is why, I find myself in various classrooms and go “what the heck
am I doing here?”
I have only done 7 supply
teaching assignments – some half days and some full days. And I feel like I
have been working forever. One half day took me to 5 different classrooms at 5
different grade levels. It was glorified babysitting and I swore to myself that
I would be more discerning and make myself more useful!
But then again, do I really
have a choice? I need 25 supply teaching days by June to stay on this gilded list.
If I get all picky and choosy, they
will get all picky and choosy on me!
One fine day, I may look back and smile. Right now, I am allowed to be
upset.
Recently, I saw this show on Netflix. What one character said resonated
with me! It was about loving your children, but not liking them. That is how I
feel about my current employment – although I love teaching, I am not liking it
right now!
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