Monday, 1 October 2018

The littlest of them all!

Many years ago, when I decided to pursue Liberal Arts, my dad's only advice to me was to do my best no matter what path I choose to walk.

A few years ago, I heard about this woman who was an incredible tutor. She was in such demand that only a lucky few got to work with her. I knew I would die for a reputation like hers.

Fast forward to now and I am nowhere near where my dad would want me to be and not even close to the woman who has no more time to give!

High expectations and lofty goals; on a positive note, I still have time and I am learning as I go.

When I am approached to tutor a child, I set up a one-time free custom assessment for that child where a parent or parents are also in attendance. They literally get instant feedback as to what I can do for the child based on my observations from the assessment. At that point in time, both parties can either move forward or call it a day. I give parents time to think about it and get back to me. If I really like the parents, I will accommodate them as much as I can with scheduling. If not, I can come up with a few reasonable excuses to decline an opportunity to work with their child(ren).

The freedom to pick my work environment is important to me. At the end of the day, I am my own boss!

If all of the above seems easy, it certainly is not! I have to think about my own children and how it affects them. My home is also my work place. So, I have had to decline a few kids without even meeting them. Some, I will still meet and assess as parents are very earnest in requesting at least some feedback about how they can help their children. The rest, whom I have actually taken on, leave me with a constant fear of if I am doing the best for them?!

The ability to choose has not made my life easy by any means. Sometimes I wish I had no choice so I can blame someone else for my fears...

Over the last 3 weeks, I have been working with a 7 year old girl. I see her at 5:30 pm on Mondays. I knew when I took her on that she is shy and her mom would like her to be assertive. I was confident that I could work with this child and produce results the parent wants. Last week, I wasn't so sure of myself. This child barely cracked a smile and showed very little emotion.

As much as a writer dreads looking at a blank page without feeling an inspiration to write something, it is worse for a teacher to look into the lifeless eyes of a pupil!

Today, as ASid was about to leave for his own French tutoring session, I remarked how I feel terrible about this child who looks like she is forced to endure an hour of some horror with me. The boy looks at me and advises that I do a song and a dance and everything I can for this child before I talk that way! He was like play a game with her; make it fun for her.

First, I was like “Hey! That is my advice to you!” And then, I was like “Great advice!”

I actually decided to sing and dance if I needed to! This is a 7 year old and suddenly the littlest of them all had become my biggest challenge!

And we got through it. I didn’t dance, but I sang to her. When her mom came to pick her up, I told her that she has the next Monday off as it is Thanksgiving Day. To my surprise, the mom was disappointed and wanted a makeup session. I told her that the child would probably like a break from me and the mom said that her child looks forward to working with me on Mondays.

What?!

I wanted to tell the mom that I didn’t believe her one bit; but then the child smiled the biggest smile ever and nodded in agreement with her mom.

Even as I am writing about it here, I find that moment unbelievable. All I can tell myself is that if I continue to care as much as I do and give it my best, even the littlest of them will sense that and learn to appreciate my efforts.

I must never ever give up on the dream of becoming the woman who is so much in demand that she has no more time to give! It is achievable!
 

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