Since that post, Neil reached out 5 or 6 times. The last 2 have been about getting together and catching up. I decided to go ahead and just do that. Today, Neil and I had lunch … and it was so much fun.
I am almost always the one to reach out to the men I adore, and they seem to respond out of a sense of obligation or just to placate me for that moment. I haven’t had anyone reach out to me and check in on me like Neil has done. No one has driven twice to my workplace, that is so far away for most people, just to see where I work or to take me out to dinner. I realized today that I should stop overthinking and just enjoy my time with Neil who has become a wonderful friend.
Neil is not aware of this blog.
I spoke to him about what has been happening at work with Michael and he got it. We also exchanged notes on the gifts we got our students. We talked about our children. We had a 2-hour lunch, and we decided we should do it again. I was honest with him and told him that I am in a good place, and I am not ready to change anything. (It felt great to say that out loud!)
I also told Neil about running into G at a grocery store.
I hadn’t seen G in months, except for that time, from the bus. So, it was nice to see him in closer proximity. Neil wondered if G and his wife were still together, and I confirmed that they are. I let Neil know that I am meeting G for lunch next week, and I am excited to reconnect. I also told Neil that we should have another lunch before we go back to work!
I finally admitted to myself that I must hang out with *all* my friends. I must not be afraid to be happy.
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