It took me a couple of hours to do cursive writing on
16 sides of pages in a regular sized journal. My fingers were cramped by the
end of it - I used muscles I hadn't in a long time. It felt good though writing
in a journal. The actual journal was gifted to me by ASid and Craigley a few
Christmases ago. It is an antique looking, simple and elegant journal. Their
hope was that I would write in it. Strangely enough, I did end up writing in it
while appropriating the voice of another woman who is a fictional character
created by my child!
In a strange coincidence, a few days later, I actually
received pictures of 3 letters I wrote in 1988, 1989 and 1990. Those letters
were written between my 14th and 16th birthdays to a good friend. He preserved
them and it was bizarre seeing my own handwritten letters after 27-29 years
later! Reading them made me realize that not much had changed between then and
now.
…I was
complaining about how I write letters regularly and no one replies to me. I was
sadly documenting about how my dad was trying to teach me to drive and how I
was driving him crazy! I was worried about all the people in my life and was
hoping they would all be OK…
Seeing those letters got me all nostalgic. I almost felt ancient thinking about the good old days! I believe I stopped writing letters somewhere in the mid-nineties.
That was when most everyone I knew got an email account.
Now, I look back at ASid's assignment as an
opportunity to examine and appreciate the past not just through fictional eyes,
but one’s own as well. ASid did a great job writing as Lydia. I almost felt like
I could be Lydia and I didn't mind writing “her words” in the journal. However,
at the end of the day, I am who I am...and apparently, I am still the same
person I was when I was 14 years old.
My fond wish is for the boys to remain just the way
they are many years from now! When they visit these pages, I hope they can
relate to who they were, get nostalgic and feel good!
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